Olivia has been out of the womb for 11 weeks and 2 days, but she was 8 weeks early so her corrected age today is 3 weeks and 2 days or 43 weeks and 2 days. 🙃 She looks like an entirely different being, but her soul – her spirit – that has been a constant. My dear @melissalflower came for a visit this past weekend and reminded me of one my absolute favorite Shel Silverstein poems:
Listen to the MUSTN’TS, child,
Listen to the DON’TS
Listen to the SHOULDN’TS
The IMPOSSIBLES, the WONT’S
Listen to the NEVER HAVES
Then listen close to me –
Anything can happen, child,
ANYTHING can be
(I’m not crying. I just have watery eyes from the dry air in the hospital. Why? Are you crying?)
I think we all need to hear this piece of wisdom for the times that we doubt ourselves, our intuition, our calling, our vocation ordained by God. This time, I needed to hear it for Olivia. Because what’s weird about moms and babies is that even though she is no longer in my womb, we are still so intimately connected. That will continue past this postpartum stage. But right now it is as if I can translate and transfer this wisdom and encouragement to her simply by my knowing it in the same way I was able to pump blood and nutrients to her.
I’m coming off of a few heavy weeks of negativity and frustration. Yesterday, after a family meeting with Olivia’s primary teams I left the hospital feeling defeated again. Right when I thought I was out of my funk. On my walk back (to our temporary) home I remembered the Shel Silverstein poem. For Olivia we have heard our fair share of shouldn’ts, impossibles, won’ts, and nevers. We have heard them. And Olivia has shown us anything can happen, anything can be.